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6月27日 Dedicate to Siti....We will be friends forever Amigos, buddies, pals Where you are, I’ll be No matter how many miles We will be friends forever No matter how many mistakes you or I make Because as long we are friends There’s nothing we couldn’t take We will be friends forever No matter where we’ll be Because when we leave one another behind You’ll be in the heart of me We will be friends forever No matter how old we are Because when you’re friends forever You’ll never be too far
Hey sistaz.. U'll take care aite... My mood to werk won't be the same anymore... Juz pray u all the best in whatever u do.. And stay happy & cheerful... Even though we are apart.. Juz called or msg me whenever u need me.. Hopefully we will still keep in touch till th end...
Goodbye.... 6月1日 Sadness is here again...My life now are like Scary Movies.. Sumtimes happy.. Sumtimes sad.. Can i just choose HAPPY all the times...???
I don wish to be like old Sarina who have to put her worries in her head.. Everyday.. Every Seconds.. Think & think and wish noting happen all that sort of shit.. Till make me wonder if i die one day.. Will anyone cry for me?? Or will they laugh at me?? Its such a torture to me.. My life sucks!! Though that time i already have everything..(MY FAMILY) Tout its goin on smooth.. Never knows it is really hard to startup a family.. Whereby u have to go tru all kind of shit.. Oh gosh..!! I am really tired!!
All i ask is to be simple & carefree... Enjoy my life with MY FAMILY.. And to be really loved and pampered by someone who share the bed together every nights... As a FAMILY.. Of cos there will be talk things out.. I mean like try to make the other party feel good.. Not by saying no point! no use! Crap right? (FAMILY)
Looking at our Photo.. It really make me smile... It really like saying if we could be like this all the way till i die.. Isn't it wonderful?? Surely i be the luckiest woman on earth.. Who don want it....??? Haiz...
Seriously i really don wan to go tru it for the ninth time.. Please i beg... I am really tired!! I wana live w/out thinking so much personal in my life which make me going BONKERS!!
*I AM SORRY... 5月16日 PhobiaI thought u really change of makin my heart feel trully full contented of having my loves ones by my side rather then living in fear... U know the best last time when i am wit u how do i feel...??? I admit i am happy just to be by ur side but my the other part of my heart i am living in fear...
Fear side of me:
(1) Losing u
(2) Cheating on me
(3) A lil bit of mistake& careleznez and i know the result....
No. (1) & (2) i dont fear so much now.. But (3) its still the same... A lil bit of my mistake & Careleznez i can see it from ur face.. I hate it.. Its really make my heart so painful when i think bout it... I ever tell it tru ur face under the void deck during our reconcillation... I juz wan a happy life and i admit i am not a perfect lady.. In fact i know myself how clumsy i am... Actually u know it even before we got married... And from the starting we begin to make our LOVE started how i really are.. Oh plz... Dont make me scared no more.. I am sorry if my mistake hurts u.. But dont give me that face.. As though its like u are trying to tell me how much u hate me... Even though after few minutes u trying to make it up to me.... But to me no point... Jus try to make urself treat me like other women who u treat as a frenz or ur galfrenz... I also wana be in their shoes who u treat nicely.... 4月13日 Hearts of painsI been thinking if we should continue or be away.. True now i really love u so much and i been putting all my heart in u.. Now i feeling like my heart cant be accepted by u.. I m so sad.. Ur love for me like started to fade & fade away slowly.. I can feel it.. And when we quarrel u juz know how to shoot me till i bleed.. U dont realised how painful it is.. I wana cry, I wana let it all out but i hold it.. Cos i m thinking i dont think its worth crying.. I know i admit certain of my words r wrong and rude to u and i m so sorry... This is nature as human being who r angry but u do get me wrong.. But from ur words which r too painful i give in to u and let u decide what u wana do... Leave Stay I respect ur decision.. Wish u all the best.. I m sure now u can live a better lifes with ur new jobs & friends.. Having me by ur side, i dont think u can lives happily... ALL I KNOW IS I AM A JINX..!!! Sorry..
Love, Is like the wind, It passes by, And leaves nothing, Behind, Just passes through, My heart, My soul, And never let me, Enjoy the feeling, The sensation, Of being cared for, By someone, Who really loves me.
Why is my life, So desperate always? Why is love, Treating me, So unkindly? I look forever, I search forever, Look everywhere, Search everywhere, And all I end, Up with is, A love that, Never lasts long.
My heart is a, Heart of pain. It has never, Been able to love, Someone longer, Than it wants to. I always love, But does, That person love me? The answers, To my questions, Are always, Painful, And different to, Take into term.
Am I suppose, To search, The rest of, My lonely life? Where will I go? Where will I search? I am tired, Of searching, And wondering, Day by day. Why must my heart, Be all pain, And none of love? 3月25日 Japanese Hunk......OOooh Goossh....!!!!
Hey people out there.....
At our club here which is my werkin place, Changi Beach Club....
A group of Japanese hunk staying here for a few days.... They are here for swimming trainning...
Each day lookin at them.... Hmmmmm....
My heart is like duk..duk...duk...duk...duk...
ALamak this if my hubby knows he give me side kick ah.. Damn it..!!!!
Sorry eh hubby just look at them no touchin, promise!!!! Haaa...haa....
Dont worry i cannot get them ah.... Heee..hee..
They are so friendly, courteous, cute, handsome and a bit blur.... Haaa...haaa..... Everyday must walk pass by my desk..... Ishk....!!!!
AAAAaaaaaaarrrrrrggggghhhh.........!!!!
Actually their group got some gals ah.... But i think if guys look at them.... Khiakhiakhiak.... Notti Me!!!
Their face like batman u know... All bcos of the swimmin goggles lah they wore it for trainin in the hot sun... It makes their face like Batman.... Hahaha....
But anyway.. The guys are the best... Love watchin them trainnin from far... Hmmmm... Tryin to take picture with them ah.. But PAISEH....!!!!!
Leeerr................
(sorry cant get their pic ah) 3月17日 Dont PhUnK wit ME..!!My heart is saying to your heart, promise to my heart that wherever you’re going just remember me.
Let the weather change but don’t change my love.
Hurry come back when you’re away from me.
Please don’t mess with me making excuses.
Moon in the night in the sleep, in my heart my love…
Where ever you are JUST REMEMBER ME… 3月13日 Now u know how i feel...I tout u really change....
But i don blame u actually, cos u know what... ???
I understand how u feel about taking cares of kids..
Cos i been tru it...
I m really dissapointed in u when u scolded me..
I know i m useless n so careless in watever i do..
But can u understand my tirednez..
I m a mum..!!
I know what i shud do but i admit not everytin i do is right.. Human are not perfect, right??
At least i m a person who knows whenever i m at home with my kids, i m the one takin care of them..
Feed them, bath them, sleep & play with them & more..
U urself see it..
U seen ur brothers wife, how they treat their kids..
No need for me to say, u know it..
After work, what i done?
After clubbin, what i done?
Can i juz sleep & rest??
Can i spent my times at home by concentrate on Tv shows or play computer games??
How many hours of sleep do u think i had??
Certain times i wish to run.. Run away from everytin but NO.. Cos i m not irresponsible person.. When i look at other woman who willin to left their kids juz like that, i wonderin how they can be happy bout it?? Don they feel guilty?? Hmmm.. All i juz pray & wish & hopin that u always be my pillar to support me & backup me..
But....
I love to see u carry our daughters..
I love to see u playin jokes with them..
I love to see us.. U, me & our daughters Laughter..
How wonderful if our lifes without tears & sadness..
I juz hate of being scolded by u.. I hate to let my tears roll down again.. Whenever i m with u i juz want a laughter & smile in us..
But i doubt so..
Maybe if u really change one day..
I wish hard & pray for it....
3月6日 NiteMare...!!I m Scared...!!! I dono if it is juz a dream or izzit real???
My 1st daughter Allysha,
saw that thing 1st and she suddenly cover her eyes and jump bside my hubby..
I was shock to see her react like that so i turn my head and look towards 2 area she look..
Guess wat...??
A little boy wearing all white standing in front of my mum-in-law's room..
Lookin at me wit fierce looks and suddenly he wana charge direct at me..
I try to shout but my voice become hoarse and very timid..
And the funniest thing is at that moment actuali i don feel sooo scared..
Dono y..?? Funny rite..???
But the one i feel scared is when the noise began...
This part my heart moving fast and fast and fast...
by my ears i heard like a Uh.....Uh...Uh...
Sound like kind of machine or wind but...
Juz hard me to describe it here...
And i heard people banging things in the kitchen..
As far as i know.. Toyol lah likes to play in the kitchen at nite...
Oh my god...!!
I m scared...!!
The best part, u know wat??
My hubby left for werk around 7.20am...
I tout rise & shine, everything Fine...
But i m wrong...!!!
After seeing my hubby out to the front door,
Kissing him goodbye....
I closed the gate & the door..
and i jump 2 bed again...
And it start again..!!!
The gate Knob...
Its like sumone playing wit it..
I tout i wana open the door and see but i look under the door no legs..
So i take my blanket and i cover my head..
Swear to god i shiver and cry...
Juz hopin it will go away as soon as possible....
Ayah, Protect me will ya...!!
2月25日 Quarrell No More...!!Oh Plz...
I don wish this type of lifetime no more...
Everyday muz quarrell..
Its so heart pain, u know..!!
When can it be stop..??
Can it be like everyday all there is Laughter only...?
Smile...?
Jokin around..?
& etc.... Happiness??
Oooh.. How i wish there is....
Can we try for 1week there no heart pain between us..??
Can we..?
Damn i feel soo hard living this way...
Everytime by lookin at other couple's laughter make me so Jealous..
The truth is i wana be love, love, love, love & love...!!!
I don wish a single tears rollin down tru my cheeks...
Plz Stop...!!
Now i really love u so much..
I really willing to stick with u again for whole my life...
I appreciate the way u show ur ways of being a true hubby to me..
Thanks, i love u so much...
But we gona do somethin with our communication, sayang..
We really do..!!
I cant take it no more..!!!
Anyway about u everythings is juz fine only Communication..!!
Sorry.. Love & miss u Always.. 2月24日 A Poem for My Love.....You came into my life unexpectedly, and everything took a turn for the better. Your warm eyes, your laugh, the sincere way you speak, and the kindness you showed me, all became a part of my life.
As you unfolded yourself to me, I discovered more and more beauty. I have never seen so much gentleness in one person. Without even knowing it, you were slowly making a place for yourself in my heart.
It used to seem so hard at times to feel so close in a relationship. But it’s so easy to feel close to you. I can’t tell you how nice that feels. I realize now that I had never known what it meant to be loved until I was loved by you.
2月20日 Ayah...Ayah..
Thanks for everything..
I m so touch with what u done for the last 2days..
U make me realised that u really have change, sayang..
Ur words, ur touch and the way u are wit ur friends..
Gosh... It really make me melt..!!
But i feel so bad as I m a BAD wife now cos i just cant be like Old Sarina which u wanted so badly..
But here let me promise u for the last time, Dont worry i will try harder to bring back old Sarina to u again..
And i hope by then u urself wont change back to ur oldself, sayang..
That u have to promise me by 100% cos i just cant fall again..
Its too much and it hurt so painful..
U should know it as i been tru it for 8years..
Because u shud know how Old Sarina will react if it gona happen again to her in future...
I dont give a damn on $$$ or Jewellery or whatever stuff out there..
Even if u talking about bike..
U got me wrong...., Sayang..
And i dont care if u can support me or not...
All i ask is just ur love for me and never leave me by myself..
That will be the greatest things in my life...
As i always say its true U will always be the only guy in my heart
I LoVe U......!!! 2月17日 Hands holding me TighT...
Say it only if you mean it Show it only if you feel it Declare it only if it's true Think, feel, know before you say I love you Tripped….. I tried to walk away but I tripped I tried to hold feelings in but I slipped I tried to turn around but I fell flat I tried to let you fade away but you pulled out the mat I tried to say good-bye but I choked I tried to keep the tears dry but I'm soaked I tried to walk away but I'm still here I tried to forget you but I need you near -------------Fooled I opened my heart to you I let you walk on in You walked my emotion through You felt my vulnerable skin You walked yourself out Taking all I had inside All you left is love doubt A heart that only wants to hide…….. |
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